I am beginning to hate technology.
First of all chat programs. You can't see or hear the person and therefore don't get a good feel for what is said. Seeing as most of what is "said" is through visual communication, conversations can easily go south...
Second. Facebook. I was venting last night about a phone call I got from Australia. I called someone an unstable bitch. A bit harsh? Definitely. However this person does not posses a Facebook account nor the ability to do so. It was done so that no-one could know who I was talking about and lets face it, we all think this about somepeople sometimes. It was wrong but I was venting and changed my status quickly afterward. Anyway to the crux of the matter. A certain female in Berlin though that this was about her. She used a chat program (see above)to contact me and ask me why she is an unstable bitch.
I was quite bewildered as to how she could think it was her. Anyway she let go some of the feelings that she must have been holding in about me for some time and didn't she let me know... We had had a chat conversation (see above) a short time before I got the phone call and it was a bit weird and it has been for the past week due to her not answering her phone and always making plans with me then canceling them to go out with other friends. Something that does piss me off as I schedule it in then get stuck with my finger up my ass on any given day while she is out with her friends. But I have come to accept this as a standard part of who she is.
Anyway back to the conversation, she didn't accept that it was not about her and proceeded to give me a written tirade about how I react and that this is not the first time this has happened but she felt that she must say something. It takes a lot for me to tell someone that they are pissing me off and even more to shout at them. She said that this is the reason she is not answering my "lines" which I take to be "messages." What about last week when I was away and needed something off the internet or help with something. Phone calls throughout the week went unanswered... So she must have been pissed before this. She did answer an email giving me some info that I requested and explained that she hasn't been near the phone, which is a load of crap but I didn't say anything because I assumed that she might have been in a bad mood or trouble at home or something. I let alot slide but now I must vent this.
Originally I was just confused at the whole thing but now as I write this it is starting to make me angry. As someone that I have helped out with numerous assignments and questions when needed, even when it meant that I lost a significant amount of sleep, I feel cheated. She has got what she needed out of me and now I can be tossed away with the rest of the rubbish.
Now that I have vented I feel better. She is someone that I would do alot for without question but fear that she is lost now. And has made up her mind about whatever she wants to think.
My advice to young players... don't write anything on Facebook that is negative because this sort of confusion will happen.
This is just the latest in a string of shit happenings. Spent a long time in hospital and rehab for a kaput back, lost my job, house got robbed and so on... I am just thinking that I must be saving some serious Karma points here. I must be going to win the lotto soon... I am trying to put a happy face on it all but I think that this is the straw. It is supposed to be winter that is shit in Berlin, not summer.
Anyway I hope all is going well in your worlds. Just remember, if its not on, its not on. 
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